I struggle with perfection. It’s not a case of full-blown OCD — but I like to get things right. I like the T’s crossed and the I’s dotted in My Life.
And trust me — this is a trait you want in your nurse. All. Your. Nurses.
But while it might serve a nurse well in her professional life and keep her patients safe, it’s hell on her personal life.
Learning to let go, to be, to leave it, to know when enough is enough are some of the most potent lessons The Universe has given me.
Over and over and over again.
The realization that I do not control every single thing in my sphere of existence. The insight to see what I can do, where I am, with what I got — to improve My Now and the Nows of the Humans I interact with. And then — To Let All The Rest Go.
Just Trust Her.
Because that is what it comes down to in the end for those of us who have this over-riding need to control every damn thing. We simply do not trust anyone else to get it right. Or rather to get it as ‘right’ as we can. You know the saying — “If you want something done right — do it yourself.”?
Well, that is Our Life Philosophy. On steroids. Until every driven Supermom or Type A personality out there burning the candle at both ends goes supernova and implodes.
The Universe in Her gentle but persistent wisdom will keep throwing the opportunity at us to learn to let go until we finally do. Until we finally learn to lean into the unknown and TRUST LIFE.
Until we do what we can and step back and say — this is enough. I can do no more. I have done what I can — the rest is up to someone else.
Until we realize we are not solely responsible for All. The. Things. Every where.
Until we become a team player in the game of Life and let someone else carry the ball for a bit.
We will learn we cannot fix The World. We cannot fix other Humans. We cannot change The Future.
But we can rest in The Now and appreciate all The Gifts it holds. We can let go of all our expectations and to-do lists. We can do what we can, with what we have, where we are and call it good.