What a lovely testament to your Soul! It took me awhile as well to hear the call of The Divine. Not God Who Lives In A Box. But The Creator of All We Behold. No Fear — Just Love.
And to realize The Divine has been with me through all of the things — including this struggle with my spirituality even. Such Grace.
“Religion is for people who afraid of going to hell. Spirituality is for those who have already been there.” — Vine Deloria Jr. — Sioux