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One day I woke up and there it was. This empty space where something hot and brittle used to live.
I noticed it first as my reaction times grew. All the things that used to piss me off — they were still there — coming at me. But the old familiar triggers were not being pulled. I would sit with my finger on the guard, waiting a second or even minutes.
Sometimes I never even took the shot.
Slowly, I began to wonder, “Is this what Wisdom looks like?”
I am still a strong, fierce woman. My boundaries intact. But there is a Trust in My Life which is new.
I look at Life for the lessons. Even the situations which used to make feel My Darkness are viewed with this new perspective.
Not only am I not reacting, I find myself choosing my words more carefully when I do respond. Not reacting — responding. Weighing the consequences of the next footfall. Deciding what is worth the investment of my time and energy.
I wait to see what The Universe has in mind. I am learning Her plan — the big picture which I cannot even imagine — is a much better place to be than the thumbprint view of Life I have. I know She has my back.
I no longer demand my side of the story to be told/heard/acknowledged. I cannot make other Humans understand me. See me. Love me. This is…
