I understand exactly what you're saying here. I wrote a similar piece awhile back. And what drove me to do so was the realization of All. The. Things. I had survived in my life. The list is long & vast. Everyone wants to believe life is a day at the park. But I realized - we are here to feel both pain & joy. And every thing in between. I know the pain is out there - it always will be. But I try to lean into the joy whenever it arrives. You're incredibly resilient. And most of us don't really want to be that - because the experiences that get us there are brutal.