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The Day My Voice Returned
I’ve been struggling with vocal cord issues for well over a year now. A long history of asthma attacks, herculean coughing fits, and medication had damaged my right vocal cord. My voice became tired, hoarse, at times nearly disappearing completely. On a good day, I’d just be channeling Kathleen Turner. On a bad day, my larynx ached with the effort to form words.
I had been to a very good ENT, a specialist’s specialist in vocal cord issues. I’d spent months and many tears learning how to speak again. My youngest granddaughter and I went to ‘speech’ together. Each in her own state. But I understood completely her frustrations as my voice refused to obey and make the sounds I was willing it to.
I would sunk back into old habits and my voice would become stressed and then retreat.
Last week I got the notice that my application for retirement was formally accepted. My boss has posted my position and we are well on our way to replacing me.
Tonight as I chanted my Metta practice, I became aware of the most unusual feeling — especially after a day on the phone with patients for work. I still have my voice. The rested, bright, shiny voice I wake up with that only usually lasts through my first patient call or MD discussion.
